Embracing the bad

One mistake tht ruin everything. One mistake to put yourself in a realm of stereotypical. Ever go through this before and you know tht it is a terrible feeling. Ppl always say time will solve everything but tht doesnt applied to this. In this world, taking one wrong step will cause ppl to see you in a different light and eyesight. There eyesight are those cold, steely gaze tht can send shiver down your spine. Makin you an outcast in your own class or school. It akin to living in a secular world with no one to talk to.

There's a saying which say when you dont have something. you will really treasure that thing when you really has it. Tht why i really treasured my friendship with everybody. Tolerate and cared for them. Cuz they rescued me from the realm of loneliness and paint my dull world with colors. So i really treasured them. I always like and treasured our time tgt and the outings we had. Maybe at time im not tht open or sporting but im gradually changing. Maybe for you all tht change is not enough but wait patiently cause i will not disappoint you all anymore with my lackluster behaviour.

If there is ever someone who is willing to accept your flaws, doesn't mind your past mistakes and willing to befriend you. Then accept tht person with open hands. Cuz tht person is the dearest friend to you.

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”

Dr Seuss

My way of surviving

All of us have flaws. I dont deny tht im not a perfect person. Man of few words, pessimistic, procrastinator and my articulation when talking are not good and on top of tht i speak fast and soft.

But if my own cliques can tolerate it. I dont see why i cnt tolerate other ppl flaws. Tdy i was deep in thought abt things in a philosophical way. The behaviour of human beings are a fascinating thing. The way we talk, do and behave can inadvertently cause ppl to be disgusted or happy. I always pride myself in seeing the good in ppl. But there are always some ppl who does not give a fucking damn to to my toleration. Give them an inch and they'll take a mile. Seriously they shld do a reflection abt their behaviour. Before imposing their ideas on me. They nvr care abt other ppl feeling. And ppl has to fucking tolerate their attitude.

Who the fuck do they think they are? You want me to tolerate your stupid attitude over and over again. C'mon ppl toleration has a limit. If you want ppl to treat you nicely, you have to treat them nicely first.

But tht is quite a difficult task for them to do, cuz they value their own interests above others. They wont hesitate to sacrifice other ppl in order to achieve their goal. Maybe you all will say tht it is natural or tht is the rule to survive in this merciless world whr helping other ppl is akin to giving yourself a death sentence. But if tht the way to survive in life, then i will wish tht i has never set foot in this world. I will not follow this stupid rule to survive. I have my own set of rules to survive and i will abide by tht.

No more mind games with ppl, playing with ppl feelings, making use of ppl trust in me to gain smth, sacrificing other ppl to achieve my goal. Tht not what my life rules are abt. I always trust ppl entirely with my whole heart. I help them without asking for anything in return. Cuz i believe firmly tht true friendship with a person does not involve having smth in return for my help. And true friendship is always based firmly on trust. If you trust your friend you wont believe what other ppl say abt them. Even if in the end they betray my trust and hurt me. I wont regret what i had done. Cuz at least i once trust tht person with all my heart and tht all tht matter.

You all may say tht im gullible or trusted ppl easily. Tht not true cuz i dont always trust what they say to me. I juz believe in them, believe tht my trust in them wont be lost so easily.

Words have immeasurable power so think before you hurl words at him

Ashley Tan