Life Prophecy

In life we always have things tht we want to do and like to do. But since we gt want and like there is gna be dont want and dislike. In life we cnt do things as we wish and want cuz there is gna be limitation tht limit whr we will go. Sometime this inevitably caused us to determine whr we wll gna be. A lot of time ppl will think it is fated and wont do anything to change it.

But to me fate can be changed! One shldnt bowed down to fate easily. Becuz even though im in NYP Food Science. I will still work hard to be the best chef in the world. I admit tht at times im slacking ard during my lecture, but tht doesnt equal to me not wrking hard. I juz isnt much of a science person so at times it hard for me to concentrate in lecture.

1994 Oscar nomination for best picture, Forrest Gump, Gump's mother once say "Life is like a box of chocolate. You wouldnt know what you gg to taste." I tasted sadness and bitterness when i didnt do well for my common test, tasted anger when i failed one module for the recent common test when i have revised for tht.

So you shld see tht im trying my hardest to be the science person tht you all are. But tht doesnt means tht im giving up my dream of becoming a world class chef. All of us only lived once, so do what you like so tht you wont have any regrets when you die. If i dont dare to go against what God has installed for me when He ask me to study food science and be a scientist. I will definitely regret it. I know tht a soft person like me isnt suited for the competitive world of culinary. But if i dont even give myself a chance, who will give me the chance?

On to something tht is close to us. What will you do if a pregnant woman enter a mrt? This Monday, i witnessed an incident tht i wont frgt. I enter the mrt at yck and ride it to khatib. When i tried to move to the rear when i noticed a pregnant women standing there. She is holding onto the handrail on a crowded mrt and i looked ard me. Nobody sitting on the seat want to give up their seat! Even ppl sitting on the priority seat. At tht instance, my thought is, is she ok for she may have take this train from raffles. I cnt believe ppl are still tht inconsiderate after all the education. I noticed a young gal sitting on the priority seat with her brother and mother. I was like why cnt the mother give up the seat so tht this will inadvertently be instilled into her children to be considerate and give up the seat to someone who need it more than you.

Life will be more meaningful and happy when you help those in need. Even the smallest gesture like giving up a seat will bring warmth to you when tht person thank you and tht person will be touched by such a gesture.

2010 MY YEAR

Everytime during the start of a year, ppl will have a set of new year resolution which they want to achieve but in the end they nvr achieve. It kinda sad tht they had a set of resolution but nvr achieve tht. They always wait till it is the start of a year then they will have a set of resolution they wna achieve. But in the end the set of resolution is chucked into the back of their mind and they will forget tht they had actually set it at all!!

WTF! Set a resolution then frgt all abt it. Might as well dont waste your time to think of what to write for your resolution. It juz fucking waste your time and effort. If you really mean it you will not need to show it off to ppl abt it on fb or whatsoever. It juz a matter of the thought. Resolution is a way of setting goals for yourself to achieve. It not to let ppl see and they will think oh, wow he so good , so ambitious. Wish him luck and scribble all sort of encouragement for him on his wall. If you dont really know the meaning of new year resolution then you wont realise the important of it.

Fucked up with this ppl, screw them upside down till they cnt sit straight. They misled ppl abt what resolution is abt and tht is a sinful thing to do. Dont talk abt this ppl.

2010 is gna be my year!! I can feel it in my blood and mind. Be it love or school. I gna top it all. New year resolution is my set of goals to achieve in this year.

Charmed everyone with my charisma

Dont get angry when ppl fucking say tht i cnt talk to save my life (Soft or incomprehensible tht your problem)

Have the most fun in this year( Meaning gna drink,club and socialise my way to 2011)

Gain some fucking cm and kg.( Damn irritating to hear ppl say oh you are too short, oh you are so skinny. WTF! It not like i want this!)

Have the most fun on my birthday( Not gna be so emo like last yr ZGC you heard tht! We have the most fun on my birthday!!)

Do my part for Earth( Mother Earth is sick and i shld do smth abt it)

Find the right gal to fall in love(She must be able to make me give up on loving the tenant living in my heart for 5 yrs. I not tht despo, i'll wait patiently)

Be good in frisbee so tht i can compete as part of NYPU(My promise with him)

Be mellow and not so hot tempered(Tht kinda hard.)

2010 gna be my year whether you agree anot. The start of a year signify the ending of a bad 2009 with so many disasters to happen to Earth! My only wish for God to listen if he can hear me. I wish tht global warming will gradually lose it speed so tht nth will happen to Earth. It only a simple wish but it concern the whole world. I hope my wish will come true.

Stuck in the past

I will always rmbr tht time in pri sch. Tht memory is etched deeply in my brain and i will nvr frgt it. It was in my 6.2 pe lesson, we were playing a baseball match. Tht incident during tht game will 4ever be the sweetest memory tht i had ever had. It was her turn to hit the ball, as the ball was put using a ball holder and not the usual baseball game whr a person throw the ball and she had to hit it. As i was saying, she was attempting to hit the ball using the bat when i kneel down in front of her to catch the ball when she hit it. I was doing tht to make fun of her as it means her strength is weak and the ball wont fly far. When one of my classmates teased me and say are you kneeling down to propose to her? It invited laughters from all my classmates. I was very embarrassed and so was she.

But even though i was embarrassed i was still a little happy. Maybe it because i was constantly bickering and teasing her tht my feeling for her increased gradually. I was secretly hoping tht she had some feeling for me too. Maybe till now this memory is still etched deeply inside me is becuz she still hold a special place inside my heart, a small little place tht had her as my tenant. Maybe after all this years, my feeling for her still hasnt decreased but still remain the same. To me she is still the loud spoken gal who laugh loudly and always fight with me and would teased me constantly. The gal who sit beside me during class and assembly. The gal who is the same height as me in pri sch. The gal who like Westlife which is oso my fave band and has their album and put it inside her bag.

Regardless of whatever tht happen all this while. I know deep down in my heart my love for her has never change. To other ppl she may be loud and maybe not tht pretty to them. But in my eyes she is cute, pretty and one who talks abt what come into her mind. Tht what i like abt her. Even though she rejected me once i will still wait for the time she will accept me. Maybe till the day i find another gal tht make me feel the same way as i feel abt her. And maybe after i know she is really happy with the one she loved. Then i will stop having this kind of feeling for her. But the place she hold in my heart will still be the same. Cuz i cnt bear to moved her out of my heart as it is akin to severing my one last tie with her.

Embracing the bad

One mistake tht ruin everything. One mistake to put yourself in a realm of stereotypical. Ever go through this before and you know tht it is a terrible feeling. Ppl always say time will solve everything but tht doesnt applied to this. In this world, taking one wrong step will cause ppl to see you in a different light and eyesight. There eyesight are those cold, steely gaze tht can send shiver down your spine. Makin you an outcast in your own class or school. It akin to living in a secular world with no one to talk to.

There's a saying which say when you dont have something. you will really treasure that thing when you really has it. Tht why i really treasured my friendship with everybody. Tolerate and cared for them. Cuz they rescued me from the realm of loneliness and paint my dull world with colors. So i really treasured them. I always like and treasured our time tgt and the outings we had. Maybe at time im not tht open or sporting but im gradually changing. Maybe for you all tht change is not enough but wait patiently cause i will not disappoint you all anymore with my lackluster behaviour.

If there is ever someone who is willing to accept your flaws, doesn't mind your past mistakes and willing to befriend you. Then accept tht person with open hands. Cuz tht person is the dearest friend to you.

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”

Dr Seuss

My way of surviving

All of us have flaws. I dont deny tht im not a perfect person. Man of few words, pessimistic, procrastinator and my articulation when talking are not good and on top of tht i speak fast and soft.

But if my own cliques can tolerate it. I dont see why i cnt tolerate other ppl flaws. Tdy i was deep in thought abt things in a philosophical way. The behaviour of human beings are a fascinating thing. The way we talk, do and behave can inadvertently cause ppl to be disgusted or happy. I always pride myself in seeing the good in ppl. But there are always some ppl who does not give a fucking damn to to my toleration. Give them an inch and they'll take a mile. Seriously they shld do a reflection abt their behaviour. Before imposing their ideas on me. They nvr care abt other ppl feeling. And ppl has to fucking tolerate their attitude.

Who the fuck do they think they are? You want me to tolerate your stupid attitude over and over again. C'mon ppl toleration has a limit. If you want ppl to treat you nicely, you have to treat them nicely first.

But tht is quite a difficult task for them to do, cuz they value their own interests above others. They wont hesitate to sacrifice other ppl in order to achieve their goal. Maybe you all will say tht it is natural or tht is the rule to survive in this merciless world whr helping other ppl is akin to giving yourself a death sentence. But if tht the way to survive in life, then i will wish tht i has never set foot in this world. I will not follow this stupid rule to survive. I have my own set of rules to survive and i will abide by tht.

No more mind games with ppl, playing with ppl feelings, making use of ppl trust in me to gain smth, sacrificing other ppl to achieve my goal. Tht not what my life rules are abt. I always trust ppl entirely with my whole heart. I help them without asking for anything in return. Cuz i believe firmly tht true friendship with a person does not involve having smth in return for my help. And true friendship is always based firmly on trust. If you trust your friend you wont believe what other ppl say abt them. Even if in the end they betray my trust and hurt me. I wont regret what i had done. Cuz at least i once trust tht person with all my heart and tht all tht matter.

You all may say tht im gullible or trusted ppl easily. Tht not true cuz i dont always trust what they say to me. I juz believe in them, believe tht my trust in them wont be lost so easily.

Words have immeasurable power so think before you hurl words at him

Ashley Tan

Day of Reckoning

Common test finally over. Truth to be told, im a little scared of what results i may get. To me all the ppr seem so difficult. I cnt really think abt how i will fared. Will it be a case of deja vu like last sem. I hope not. I crossed my fingers and prayed hard to the God to let me pass it all.

After common test. We got this Christmas Lunch at a familiar place, our physic tutorial room. The food for tht event is Pizza Hut. We were all eating it like there no tmr. Haha. Simply delicious and borrowing a phrase from KFC, Its Finger Licking Good! Haha. After this lunch we got a gift exchange. I was hoping tht i may get Mr TSK present becuz i wna ask or literally brainwashing him to buy me an itouch. Haha. But anw i got a CUTE present courtesy of Jun Poh. The handphone holder is simply cute and i love it! It beat getting tht dustbing from Oktavia. Lol!

After lunch we went shopping in Orchard. I finally know tht Dr. Marten is in Orchard Central and not Orchard Ion! We went to Far East Plaza to shop and i saw a blazer tht i really like. But it cost 89 bucks which was too exp. So gna consider abt it. Then we went to Takashimaya. I was gg there to buy a book which my sis asked me to buy for her. Christmas is really in the air. I can smell and feel it. But the only thing tht left is snow which is literally not gg to happen anytime soon.

Anw i have a wishlist of the things i want to buy so if you all want to buy for me go ahead i not gg to stop you. Haha. Juz kidding. I wna buy this things using my own money cuz i can get the satisfaction out of it.
The things are
Dr. Marten boots
Burberry wallet
2 shirts
1 long sleeved shirt
1 vest
1 blazer
1 tie
necklace
studded bracelet
Bboy cap
new t shirts
Nikon s1000pj
Itouch
Adidas sneaker
skinny jeans

Ray-Ban aviator sunglasses

This is juz for now maybe will have more added to the list. Hopefully i can get them all. Im not materialistic. The clothings are all for cny and the wallet is becuz my current one is gg to break apart soon. The electronic equipments are things which i crave for. Becuz the world is changing and human beings are also changing. So this electronic equipment are smth tht i want to have. The camera is becuz im currently into photography while itouch is smth tht will make boredom go away when you are alone.

Before i frgt i juz saw my F&N teacher, Mrs Hawa in NYP food science lab. Cnt believe i meet her there. Talk to her abit and she say my hair getting longer. Haha. The good boy is turning bad or is it cooler.

Eyes that see the heart

Whenever a gal walk past me. I will inevitably check her out. To see whether she make the grade and is pretty. Maybe it a guy genes that can't be explained. I dont wanna be a shallow person who like a gal becuz of her look. I want to like her becuz of her kindness, intelligent and the way she talk and carry herself.

Shallow is always something that men can never get rid of. To us being pretty is above everything else in our criteria for looking for our other half. But then is it really tht important? What is important is whether she is kind. A gal who is kind but ugly and a gal who dont have any empathy but is pretty. Who will you choose? I think almost all the guys will go for the former. Becuz guys can never resist being with a pretty gal. Im one of them. But im finding myself slowly trying to break away from that mould. I dont like that shallow me, it causing me to see things in a way that is always on appeareance and not smth that is beneath that.

I wanna be a guy who has a pair of eyes tht see the heart. It may help me to judge things in an unbiased ways. People will say that it can't really be done. But if i never try then i will never know. Beauty tht is skin deep is not important in the long run if she doesn;t has a heart to be with me in time of difficulty.

This is something i have realised and gained enlightenment on after being with my group of friends. They make me realised that and i won't forget that so easily. An above average gal is ok if she has a heart of gold.

Beauty can be tempting but it will wear off if it only skin deep
Ashley Tan