It always me envying the success of other ppl while im still at the pit. I am always jealous of them and angry that they do practically nothing and can be at the spot that i always want but can never reach no matter how hard i try.
It like im a sadistic that practically want everyone to fall while im the only one standing and gloating at their failure. Am i a devil in disguise? Im disgusted at this envious thought of mine. This thought always disappear when someone lend me a helping hand, i practically melt away by this gesture and i become the person i always were.
Maybe it because i absolutely adore being reveled in the limelight. It like everyone acknowledging me and my success. It a pleasure thats know no boundary. But now i dunno whether it a pleasure or a torture. I don't want to be a person that eyes something that i don't have now. I want to work for it so that the pleasure will throughly be genuine.
The one week that i was away from Singapore, i thought about alot of things and have alot of fun. I gained deeper insight into things that i once was stumped at. All this philosophical thoughts alway make me a better person than im now. It what i alway believe in.
I put a full stop to this philosophical thought for now, while i go and do a mental calculation about all the sweets that i bring back and how i share with you all. Im still the same that for sure except for the addition of a hardened determination and resolve to succeed.
If you are watching this post, yes you! An insult can trigger alot of emotions and feeling. It how you look at it. The worst thing you can do is being angry cuz then you are walking straight into the trap that the person laid out. Never mind what the person say for you know you have improved from when we first met.
What you think means more than anything else in your life. More than what you earn, more than where you live, more than your social position, and more than what anyone else may think about you.
George Matthew Adams
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