Lusting for that perfect ending

A longing that hurts me badly. Its like you are not there to see it. My heart and pulse were alway racing to meet your smell. Seems like they are used to having you around. Always denying me the honored of being there for you. Can't seem to comprehend why you always want to keep me at a distance. Waiting anxiously for you to be online yet dunno what to say to you when your are online. Is this the departing of winter and the arriving of spring? Longing for your touch yet evading your hands at the last minute. You were always a step ahead of me. Never giving me the chance show off my ability. Demeaning me but at the same time concerned about me. I juz couldn't comprehend your action. You always make me wna protect you from everything. Your eyes are always so beautiful making me unable to stare back at the gaze. Your smell always announce your arrival. It sweet smelling and lingered for long period. I juz want to watch you and care for you. Giving you my shoulder when you wna cry and lending a listening ear when you are unhappy. Words just can't describe you.

Let me be your best friend till you find someone who really know how to appreciate and care for you. Thats be the calling for me to leave as i will watch over you from afar. Never letting you taste the bitterness of being hurt and sad.