Diving for eternal suffering

We all have our own set of principles. Whatever it might be, it can indirectly be the trigger tht make them do things tht maybe good or bad. Sometime people fight becuz they felt tht the set of principles is being threatened and will fight to protect it. To all of us, our principles are something tht are valued above all. It inevitably make us who we are in terms of personality and empathy.

My principles are always about putting my friends and family before me. Their interests come before mine. Maybe it is hard to believe. But for them i will sacrifice the money that i saved for many weeks so tht i can go out with them to watch movies or have dinner. I will also care for people tht are less fortunate than me as their plight often bring tears to my eyes. So i will look for way to help them. The smallest gesture like giving up my seats to someone needy is something tht i do and hope many people will do as well. I also dont believe in making use of people to get what i want and sacrifice them to achieve what i want. Becuz i think that this is something brutal and cruel. Making use of people feeling for me to my own advantage is something tht i will not do and never will.

Im what God make me out to be. However lousy im, i will not complain cuz i believe tht each has its own forte. Maybe mine is different from yours. Being branded parasitic, lazy, irresponsible and most of all not doing anything when project or group work is concern. I beg to differ, as my principles state im not one to make use of people so why would i make use of them, letting them do more than me in term of workload. I may be clumsy and slow but im definitely not one to shirk from my responsibility. People always ask me "Is it better to do with him or her." It seems like they are hinting and indicating tht they are doing the most work while im slacking and doing slip-shod work. Im controlling myself not to spew out all the profanities tht i heard over the years at them. Maybe it becuz they are more intelligent than me so tht make them seem like their capability are way above me.

If tht how they viewed me then they can see me in tht light for the rest of their lives. I dont care and wont explain. I will just use my action to make you realise it. But if it still not working then i will let you see me in tht light for the rest of your boring live.

We all tend to view people with microscopic eyes that will find the smallest of fault within them. But what we forget is that we also have flaws and faults.

Ashley Tan