Trust is the faith in yourself

Is results really that important? As hot tears well up in my eyes and dripped down my cheeks as the truth and realization of the results that i had gotten. I still don't have the answer. The process of your revision for your modules is like secondary to the result. When i knew that i need to repeat 2 modules. It like a shock jolt on my mind and emotion. I had give my utmost best for this 2 modules as this two modules was also the one that i failed in common test. Organic Chemistry and Cell Biology.

Maybe organic chemistry was not revised that well so failing it is no surprise but cell biology. I revise for it tediously and really go through it. I can't comprehend why i can fail it.

Yesterday was the day, the result was released but i was at chalet. Some of my classmates had check their result and i knew that they had done pretty well. But for me it was contemplating whether i had fail organic chemistry. Even though i knew the answer i was hoping a miracle will happen. But it seem like everyone had forsaken me or is it me that had given up on myself in the first place?

Trust and having faith in yourself is very important as it determine the manner in which you will pursuit your goal. Will you be confident that you will achieve your goal or downplaying your chance of really achieving your goal. Maybe it was because right from the start when i start my first semester i don't really trust myself and even don't have the faith that i will do well. So it inadvertently have an impact on me as i slackened off and never really give my 100% for the course. When i never do well for a test it further cemented my belief that i can never do well for it.

As i pondered over a major decision that will concerned my future. My heart really can't bear to go through it again cuz it has a demoralizing effect on me and i feared that the impact it had on me is really negative and will cause a phobia or a fear in me. Maybe it time to find the courage in me to continue on this journey cuz i really don't wna be a quitter in life!

Courage is not the absence of fear, but simply moving on with dignity despite that fear

Pat Riley